Maybe I'll get a moment to write this evening while I am relaxing at home.
But for now I just want to list out some of the awesome things that have been going on. I am enjoying the summer a lot :)
Last Friday we went longboarding for Shane's birthday and got Cold Stone ice cream. We had a nice bonfire afterward, but had to leave early. Little did Shane know we were surprising him Saturday morning...we kidnapped him and took him to Indianapolis for "Run For Your Lives" Zombie 5K. It was a BLAST. It made me sore and exhausted, but entirely worth it.
Monday night we ate sushi with some best friends.
Tuesday night was Bible study.
Tonight we're using one of Sal's free dinner coupons for our meal immediately after work! And then I will relax in peace at home for a while by myself (needed).
Thursday we're using another of Sal's free dinner coupons for our meal with a group of 6 wonderful friends.
Friday we're taking a half-day at work and heading out to the lakehouse for the entire weekend (well, I'll be coming home for like 3 hours for a baby shower). Erica is coming with me on Saturday! :D
Saturday is also Sal's birthday! Yayyyy :) I have a special present for him, I hope he likes it (I can post about it AFTER he gets it)
Sunday we're celebrating his birthday just as a family (us two).
Monday we're celebrating his birthday with his parents and brothers.
Wednesday we have work off for the holiday.
Saturday we are going to our friend's Harry Potter themed birthday (yup...she's gonna be 28).
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
planning not to plan
So I have made a decision to not make any more week day plans for the rest of the summer.
One reason is because I need to crack down at work and I can't feel the pressure to leave to go home when it might be in my best interest to stay at work longer.
Second reason is because I end up in situations like now where I haven't had a chance to be at home with just Sal before 11:30pm in 2 weeks. I can't function like that...I am definitely an introverted person so as much as I love others, I need time to myself to not go insane.
There are circumstances where I am allowing myself to make a plan. But in general, I do not plan on making any plans more than 24 hours in advance.
I'm not sure if this is productive to post on a public blog, but I suppose it doesn't really matter at this point. Even if no one reads this, I feel like by making it open to anyone it somewhat helps hold me accountable to calming my life down.
I like what an old mentor of mine has told me (paraphrasing)...live your life. Invite people to join you in your daily tasks (where you can, obviously I can't bring people to my job) but don't plan everything out otherwise you will have no time with yourself and God and your spouse which is essential. You can plan out every hour and detail for the next 6 months, but you can't really live happily like that. You'll get burned out and that's not good for anyone--you or your relationships.
I go for weeks on end before I get one evening off and that's not healthy. I know I am sort of cutting to another extreme of not making any plans Mon-Thurs, but I am still planning weekends. It just so happens they are all busy from now until August. Whoops. I guess if I can cut this off to give myself room to breathe, I can recharge, actually enjoy my summer, and get things done instead of it flying by in a whirl-wind and feeling unaccomplished.
The question I want to know is when did I become so popular??? aha. I'm kidding, but really, how do I know this many people that want to hang out? I feel like that's a reason why I like the idea of deleting facebook. Rather, I need to have better self control so I don't find myself in these situations.
One reason is because I need to crack down at work and I can't feel the pressure to leave to go home when it might be in my best interest to stay at work longer.
Second reason is because I end up in situations like now where I haven't had a chance to be at home with just Sal before 11:30pm in 2 weeks. I can't function like that...I am definitely an introverted person so as much as I love others, I need time to myself to not go insane.
There are circumstances where I am allowing myself to make a plan. But in general, I do not plan on making any plans more than 24 hours in advance.
I'm not sure if this is productive to post on a public blog, but I suppose it doesn't really matter at this point. Even if no one reads this, I feel like by making it open to anyone it somewhat helps hold me accountable to calming my life down.
I like what an old mentor of mine has told me (paraphrasing)...live your life. Invite people to join you in your daily tasks (where you can, obviously I can't bring people to my job) but don't plan everything out otherwise you will have no time with yourself and God and your spouse which is essential. You can plan out every hour and detail for the next 6 months, but you can't really live happily like that. You'll get burned out and that's not good for anyone--you or your relationships.
I go for weeks on end before I get one evening off and that's not healthy. I know I am sort of cutting to another extreme of not making any plans Mon-Thurs, but I am still planning weekends. It just so happens they are all busy from now until August. Whoops. I guess if I can cut this off to give myself room to breathe, I can recharge, actually enjoy my summer, and get things done instead of it flying by in a whirl-wind and feeling unaccomplished.
The question I want to know is when did I become so popular??? aha. I'm kidding, but really, how do I know this many people that want to hang out? I feel like that's a reason why I like the idea of deleting facebook. Rather, I need to have better self control so I don't find myself in these situations.
Monday, June 18, 2012
the art of shrugging and laughing
So many interesting things going on in life...including recreational events and work-related drama(ish).
This summer has been very eventful and fun. I am spending time with loved ones a lot and I've been really enjoying my marriage with my awesome husband :). He is such a great friend!
In terms of work, I've really gotten good at shrugging and laughing things off. I am SO at peace with the situation and am extremely blessed. Several of my old posts where I am frustrated are directed at the same people that are being a blessing in my life. Weird how that works. I am grateful for it, though.
Longer/more detailed update to come.
This summer has been very eventful and fun. I am spending time with loved ones a lot and I've been really enjoying my marriage with my awesome husband :). He is such a great friend!
In terms of work, I've really gotten good at shrugging and laughing things off. I am SO at peace with the situation and am extremely blessed. Several of my old posts where I am frustrated are directed at the same people that are being a blessing in my life. Weird how that works. I am grateful for it, though.
Longer/more detailed update to come.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
gardening
I woke up early this morning to get a great start to my day...going plant shopping with my mom!
Sal and I live in an apartment, so there are some things that home-owners/renters have the luxury of that we do not. For example, growing a large garden. Well, we are lucky enough to have a balcony off of our living room that gets lots of sunshine during the day! That means we can at least do some potted plants.
So today, I went with my mom to a gardening store to pick some out! :). We also went to Big Lots to find some inexpensives containers and supplies.
I ended up purchasing lemongrass, spinach, cherry tomatoes, green beans, red pepper, green pepper, cucumber, and two kinds of flowers (can't remember what kind at the moment) for a decorative flower hanger I have. I feel like I am forgetting something? Maybe not. I can update later when everything is sorted out (it's all at my parents' for now, I am planning on potting tomorrow at their house and then setting everything up since there is really nowhere to prep here).
There are so many other plants I'd like to grow, but since this is my first garden on my own, I figured this was a good place to start! Some key things I'd like to add are onions (sweet or green or both!), carrots, and lots of herbs. I was actually very tempted to buy a ton of herbs, but I don't have enough recipes and I didn't want to be wasteful. I just get very excited at the thought of cultivating this all myself that sometimes I feel as though I might go overboard... :-P. So I convinced myself not to buy tons of herbs yet until I have an idea of how I might use them.
I think I will really enjoy gardening. There are a bunch of reasons...I like doing things with my parents and they have been awesome teachers of things like this, it saves money, home-grown vegetables taste infinitely better, I can completely control how they are handled and grown (trying to be cleaner/organic/no chemicals), I can pick at optimum ripeness instead of what is offered at the store, I can share with friends so they can enjoy the goodness, it's relaxing, etc etc etc. I run the risk of screwing it up or just having a bad season because of weather or something, but I think it's worth it. I'm sure it's a very rewarding process and I look forward to experiencing my own harvest.
Sal and I live in an apartment, so there are some things that home-owners/renters have the luxury of that we do not. For example, growing a large garden. Well, we are lucky enough to have a balcony off of our living room that gets lots of sunshine during the day! That means we can at least do some potted plants.
So today, I went with my mom to a gardening store to pick some out! :). We also went to Big Lots to find some inexpensives containers and supplies.
I ended up purchasing lemongrass, spinach, cherry tomatoes, green beans, red pepper, green pepper, cucumber, and two kinds of flowers (can't remember what kind at the moment) for a decorative flower hanger I have. I feel like I am forgetting something? Maybe not. I can update later when everything is sorted out (it's all at my parents' for now, I am planning on potting tomorrow at their house and then setting everything up since there is really nowhere to prep here).
There are so many other plants I'd like to grow, but since this is my first garden on my own, I figured this was a good place to start! Some key things I'd like to add are onions (sweet or green or both!), carrots, and lots of herbs. I was actually very tempted to buy a ton of herbs, but I don't have enough recipes and I didn't want to be wasteful. I just get very excited at the thought of cultivating this all myself that sometimes I feel as though I might go overboard... :-P. So I convinced myself not to buy tons of herbs yet until I have an idea of how I might use them.
I think I will really enjoy gardening. There are a bunch of reasons...I like doing things with my parents and they have been awesome teachers of things like this, it saves money, home-grown vegetables taste infinitely better, I can completely control how they are handled and grown (trying to be cleaner/organic/no chemicals), I can pick at optimum ripeness instead of what is offered at the store, I can share with friends so they can enjoy the goodness, it's relaxing, etc etc etc. I run the risk of screwing it up or just having a bad season because of weather or something, but I think it's worth it. I'm sure it's a very rewarding process and I look forward to experiencing my own harvest.
Friday, June 8, 2012
inferiority
Stepping up and trying to take matters into my own hands.
People will manipulate me or make me feel inferior...because I let them. I only feel less than others because it's how I perceive myself. I think I was born more of a leader, and it has shown to be true in how I get treated when I am in groups with people. People just tend to look to me. I don't believe I am out-spoken about things. I just wind up falling into that role.
Anyway, like I said. I need to stop being so hard on myself, and rather proud of my talents that are possible only through Christ who grants them to me. I will use them to bless and teach others. AMEN!
People will manipulate me or make me feel inferior...because I let them. I only feel less than others because it's how I perceive myself. I think I was born more of a leader, and it has shown to be true in how I get treated when I am in groups with people. People just tend to look to me. I don't believe I am out-spoken about things. I just wind up falling into that role.
Anyway, like I said. I need to stop being so hard on myself, and rather proud of my talents that are possible only through Christ who grants them to me. I will use them to bless and teach others. AMEN!
Thursday, June 7, 2012
God's plan
I gotta put more faith in God's plan.
Overall I am not worried about how my career will end up. Honestly, I don't care...I will be happy with either outcome I am optioned with right now. But it's the day-to-day wear and tear that destroys me quite a bit. I need to pray about it and trust God with what will happen. So far up to this point, I've received pretty clear answers on what I need to do because usually one thing will work out and the other thing won't. However, this time I have a choice and it could go either way. I don't know how to do this.
Overall I am not worried about how my career will end up. Honestly, I don't care...I will be happy with either outcome I am optioned with right now. But it's the day-to-day wear and tear that destroys me quite a bit. I need to pray about it and trust God with what will happen. So far up to this point, I've received pretty clear answers on what I need to do because usually one thing will work out and the other thing won't. However, this time I have a choice and it could go either way. I don't know how to do this.
Monday, June 4, 2012
questions
I have so many questions about my faith. Not that I am questioning my faith...I know whole-heartedly that Jesus is the only Savior and King, and I am his. But that doesn't mean there aren't questions about certain things. I think that God gave us the Bible to know what we need to know. Anything the Bible doesn't address, isn't something that is necessary to have the answer to (otherwise he would have told us). And I'm not talking about abortion or something, I know the word "abortion" isn't in the Bible, but I think things like that are still very clear. I am talking about deeper things about God outside of our time of chronos. I am interested in things I can't even convey in words but make sense in my head. That is something I plan on working on soon...writing out my thoughts and trying to convey them the best I can. I can start to try and have sensible conversations with people on these things. Sometimes when we can get our thoughts and questions out, we often stumble upon the answers on our own.
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